manifestations of acute schizophrenia

1. ym status: "gusto ko din ng busy icon.=(" ; the next minute, "wee. survivor china sa friday 2pm c/s. haha. buti na lang wala akong work. ang schizo ko. haha"

2. wants: thriving in the "real world" as a workaholic girl to invest for a much envisioned successful future vs. staying in dreamland engulfed by all the idealism i've been accustomed to i.e. staying as youthful and carefree as before (which is easier if i may add)

3. see inconsistencies of sadness and happiness in previous blog entries. also, i'm happy to have the time to catch up with friends and loved ones but sad that most of them are busy unlike me. tsk

4. constant questioning of self identity

ang psychotic ko talaga pag sinusumpong. but i believe this too shall pass. and i'm actually looking forward to a lot of things. tomorrow's friday! yey! para akong nagtatrabahong excited na dahil weekend na. haha. pero sa totoo lang excited ako tuwing weekends kasi that's when i'll have true company. i have now come to a conclusion that my greatest fear is to be alone. and i'm glad that i'm not even a millimeter close to that.=)