trilemma

naisipan ko lang iblog na ang kaguluhan ko sa buhay. bakit kaya ngayon lang ako nagkaroon ng gantong matinding pag-iisip sa future? well i owe it all on hsbc. thanks for all the realizations. hehe. so as of now napaka-unclear ng future ko. hindi ko alam kung san ako pupunta. at meron na akong trilemma, word na inimbento ko kasi hindi fit ang dilemma lang. anyway, basically hindi ko na alam kung ano ba talagang gusto kong tahaking landas when it comes sa career. at hindi ko rin naiintindihan kung bakit ba ko nagmamadali. haay baka nature ko na rin yun. ayoko kasi talaga yung feeling na i'm wasting my time. so now i present my choices: (nung isang araw lang arranged na sya sa utak ko in terms of preference pero ngayon hindi ko nanaman alam kung alin ba talaga pinakagusto ko. haay. so i'll just label them with letters.)



option A: actuary! pros: pinakamataas na mithiin na pwede kong makamit. feeling ko iba talaga yung sense of fullfillment pag na-achieve ko sya. career growth is highly dependent on your efforts and not so much on vacant positions that may become available. cons: sobrang hirap, napakamaeffort, ang tindi ng competion when it comes to being hired by an insurance company, at ang liit ng starting salary for me na wala pa namang napapasang SOA exam. haay. ( i swear traumatizing yung interview ko with philam. i've never been more doubted in my entire life.)


option B: a career in computational finance! pros: the closest career to my long lost dream of being an accountant. i am highly confident that i'll succeed in this track. cons: career growth is slower compared to option A. starting salary is a bit higher than option A but still low (depending on company). competition is also tough because there a lot of CPA's out there.


option C: a career in IT/programming! pros: high starting salaries. there are a lot of openings out there so competition is not that high. i know that i'll also do good here. cons: career growth is still indeterminate because i'm not really aware of the opportunities that will be made available once i choose this track.


so there. ang hirap kasi ng maraming gusto. haay. kasi naman napakarami kong tinake na iba't ibang electives. lahat tuloy sila nagustuhan ko. tsk. napaka-newbie ko pa when it comes to interviews. i've done only three interviews ever since i graduated and so far traumatizing tlga yung isa dun. pero ngayon i'm leaning more on wanting a job with hp. naka-ym ko kasi si chie kagabi at mukhang ok talaga yung job. sana lang my interview with them if ever won't go as disastrous as my interview with megaworld and philam. pero everything happens for a reason. i know i'll find my place eventually. i just have to learn to be patient enough. patience is a virtue! bakit ba ayaw matanggap ng utak ko yan? haay.