whirlwind

kung gaano kadormant ang buhay ko the past six months e syang opposite naman ng nangyayari sa life ko these days. parang extremes talaga e. i'm having almost the same feeling as i had when i was in 3rd year college. the only difference is that today i am a bit older. hindi ko pa rin madetermine if i'm taking in more than i can chew. pero if there's one thing that's totally the same about these two instances in time is that i haven't been having enough sleep. sana talaga sanay na yung katawan ko. ayoko nga mamatay no. anyway, here's a list of recent events contributing to my stress levels kung good or bad stress man yun medyo undecided pa ko sa ibang instances.

1. sept. 8 - birthday celebration ni norman na naki-extra si len. hehe. that was definitely one HELL of a good entertainment! notice the emphasis on hell, thanks len.ü sorry rin sa pang-asar dito. haha as if naman nagbabasa ka ng blogs pero malay mo. pero seriously, nakakatuwang panooring magperform ang mga kaibigang napalapit na talaga sayo. tska first time ko makita ang cooties na i've heard so much about. ang dami pala talaga nila kahit hindi pa sila kumpleto sa lagay na yun. nakakatuwa yung barkada nila. hehe. tska sympre it's nice to be with the "paksyon" again.ü although hindi pa rin maiiwasang may frictions. nagsink in na saking fact of life talaga yun. (generally, good stress!ü nga lang may mga nalaman rin ako na hindi ko alam kung good or bad ba.)

2. sept. 7 - i gave my resignation letter (bad stress.=[ nahiya rin naman kasi talaga ako sa hsbc because the company and the people have been so good to me. i'll definitely miss my team and tranche. and as of now the status of that resignation is still unclear due to #3)

3. sept. 8 - i was diagnosed with reflux laryngitis. ang sakit na inargue ko pa kay jr dati na hindi naman pwedeng mangyari dahil ang esophagus ay may peristalsis. kc pinagsabihan kami ng papa niya na huwag humiga pag busog. turns out nagiging rigid pala ang esophagus due to stress minsan thus when you lie down, acid from the stomach may travel back to the larynx causing its inflammation. narealize ko rin na masamang magfeeling doctor minsan. hehe. takot kasi ako sa doctor kaya minsan i diagnose myself thinking that i have enough knowledge about that stuff or kung hindi man ireresearch ko na lang. haha. obviously, hindi talaga enough ang biology knowledge ko. haha. at ang galing talaga ng ENT doctor ko. in fairness, naramdaman ko for the first time ang advancement ng technology dito kasi dr. villegas took digital images of my larynx. pero sympre wala pa ring sinabi yun sa equipments sa dr. house. pero ayaw ko naman maexperience yun dahil wala akong pera at dahil ibig sabihin rin nun e malala na ang sakit ko. salamat sa hsbc for my intellicare card. nga lang ang mahal rin nman ng gamot ko. tsk. sorry sa blab. hehe. ay meron pa pala, sobrang limited ng diet ko. asar yun. tubig na nga lang pwede kong inumin e. tsk (low stress factor)

4. job hunting - well, 3 months after graduation e ngayon lang ako naghahanap ng "totoong" trabaho. hehe. i have pending applications with megaworld, philam care and landbank service corp. mahirap rin pala ang maraming inaapplyan lalo na't hindi pa talaga ok yung resignation ko. buti na lang i'm not allowed to work for two weeks to give my voice a rest. so in the mean time job hunting. sorry ulit sa hsbc for this.
4.1 sept 3 - initial interview and a lot of exams with philam. hirap nung english part. wala ko masagot. boo. pero ayun sa philam care ako nirefer nung hr baka kasi tapos na ang interviews sa philam life. heard mahirap ang panel interview and maliit rin ang salary. pero we'll see. interview ko this friday.
4.2 sept 10 - initial interviews and exam with megaworld. asar kung anu-ano sinasabi ko sa interview nde kasi gumagana utak ko masyado dahil ata kulang pa ko sa tulog. hehe. sayang. pati nung nag-exam pa ko may music sa background napapakanta pa tuloy ako ng umbrella habang nag-eexam. hehe. status? tatawagan daw ako within this week for further details, good luck naman. hehe.
4.3 my exam with lbp will be tomorrow. hopefully by tomorrow well-rested na ang utak ko.
(can't determine if good or bad stress ang job hunting. pero ang init sa makati ah!)

5. other personal, social issues which i'd rather not elaborate on for reasons of confidentiality. (medyo indeterminate rin as a stress level factor)

so all in all, i'm stressed and exhausted but still trying to be happy and contented. sympre ano pa bang gagawin mo kundi maging optimistic diba? ü pero sobrang thanks sa support ng family, friends especially ni len at katz at sympre ni jr.ü sayo rin na nakaabot sa part na to, thanks for caring enough that you were able to withstand all that babble. hehe